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I stand alone among the four walls
what should I do today?
Who should I talk to?
I look in the mirror, into my green eyes
who tell the truth today, may surprise me tomorrow

what should I do today, I ask again
I feel like a fog, I rise and disappear
I leave a trail that repels me
and I just want to endure

I drowned in the depths
there is an empty scream
I will not count the nights of those sleepless
which way to go
in the dark, I look for that closed door
in this uncertainty I err, believing that something will lead me
to you
I don't know how much time I have to spend
how much crying will bring me happiness
fear, fear still in my head
I come up with a plan, a plan
in this loneliness in life, this time, time passes for us
it keeps flowing, it escapes us,
this is how our time continues
this loneliness time

we close in on ourselves
I am alone not only in my head
will someone answer my call
since I was permanently losing control
but I'm scared (I'm scared again)
that you will never see me again
I never wanted to close myself in this void
while time was still killing us, I tried to escape somehow
but it's for nothing
that's why I listen to the silence
I listen to the future, nothing more.

(I don't know anymore, but it's such a strange feeling that you want to talk to someone, but you don't have anyone and you're just afraid that you are left alone with your thoughts and ...)


the struggle continues with the inner voice
call or look, stay like this
how am I or fast
I do not know what to do
or wait
can you stand
do you weep in the depths of your soul?
millions of thoughts, hundreds of situations
in the middle of the fog

I would like to run away (I will show you the way) I want to run a shortcut (but today I will not help you)

I dial this number
I'm not calling anyone
I just hear an echo
but the range is not reaching me